ok no more being…
no more being bitter. only to myself and blogging its okay. hahaha but i dont mean to hurt anyone or anything I just want to let out these sword feeling I get/feel…
I never thought…
I never thought at this age my childhood would reflect my adulthood this bad. With letting go of a religion I thought was my ultimate WOW is not. Religion is religion and beliefs are beliefs. I feel that a person’s religion should not seperate me from having a friendship with them. I only push away bc I am not allowed to talk to anyone in my past religion because of their disfellowship rules. I was once Jehovah’s Witness and I am speaking out for all fellow Jw’s that got kicked out of the religion for being true. Unlike the hypocrisy that rules int he world, i think its ridiculous how they treat me and my parents. But its okay.. Its life and another challenge I’ve been going through since the age of 19. I can’t believe they just can’t accept imperfection I am not perfect..
I’ve found the right medication.
yes I am not ashamed I have found the right medication.
I thank God for this and Earth for giving me life and a clear head. :)
a friend posted on facebook, let your past make you better not bitter. Its true. I hate when there is drama not amongst me but people I know and it bothers me! Ugh, i guess the world is just like this. If shit happens it happens and forgive and forget. I know people cannot forget mistakes or misunderstanding but thats all them…
I dont know how I feel i just feel misplaced and little hurt. but its not going to make me bitter but better. Life is life and life is good.
I’m better :)
Day by day I am getting better. With the right meds everything is better. Being diagnosed is the worst feeling ever but to accept it is the biggest step and hardest step. New things to deal with new world of mine is different now. :)
Me at 170+ pounds.
stupid weight gain.
This is what happens if you don’t care about what you eat dannnnnnng. I can’t believe it don’t let my smile fool you dude ive gained weight. So ingot Medifast to help me.
Mental illness can be helped everyday
I’ve chosen Medifast.
Today is my first day.
im sick again.
im so sick that there is too much going on. No more smoking, no more shows, no more nothing. I just want my life together with the one I love the most.
I am excited.
I am scared.
I know how to ruin things when its not necessary.
I don’t mean it.
i push people away i dont need to but I need to.
My mind is going to shut off again to the world.
I need the help I really need.
What the Fuck!